Just an update 'bout me!

I'm so pissed... Ngayon lang ulit ako nakapag-post! Dami kasing gawain sa school! Buti na nga lang at ang aming instructor sa "writing for radio" ay nanganak! At least nabawasan ang pressure kahit konti... Pero pag naiisip ko yung isang prof namin, GOD! Hahahahahahaha! Sarap niyang kalbuhin kahit na kalbo na siya... Anyway, basta gagalingan ko na lang...

In fairness guys, ang sarap ng may ginagawa sa buhay... kahit na tipong hindi ka na nakakatulog para lang matapos mo ang mga gawain...

Nga pala... Para sa mga taga letran na nakakabasa ng post na ito, please support me...! I'll really want to be your next P. R. O. Promise hindi masasayang ang boto ninyo... ;D

Just like to share this... Hindi ko talaga maintindihan ang sarili ko! *sad* I want to stop na...

Sawa na ba kayo...?

Guys... Sawa na ba kayo? Kasi ako, sawang-sawa na! Paulit-ulit na alng talaga! Lagi na lang pagdating sa kanya, ganito ako... Basta pag siya talaga, lagi na lang akong nag-bebreakdown... Akala ko talaga, wala na... Masaya ana ako actually kasi medyo makulay ang buhay ko dahil sa mga taong yun... Pero, grabe talaga! nung dumaan lang siya sa isip ko... WALA NA! Balik nanaman... Ano bang meron sa kanya na kada maiisip ko siya, ganito na lang palagi ang nagyayari sa akin! Maybe I'm just expecting too much again... Maybe I'm CRAVING (yun talaga yung word!) for his attention... I don't know! Hala?! Ba't ba ganito ako? CRAZY! CRAZY! CRAZY!

*hitting my head*

Tado din ako noh! INOM! Ampf! Argh!!!! Di na talaga ako nadala!

Paranoia ... not a good thing

I've been too paranoid these past few days about some stupid "THING" I've been thinking about a lot! It's something between me and someone special in my life ... and my head has been playing around "IT" a lot and "IT" is just hurting me inside and making me crazy! Well, one thing's for sure, It made me realized, like what I've said with one of my friends, that it would be better off for me to have him as my friend than not having him at all in my life -- and this is what made me a paranoid. I just can't take the fact that I would lose him even as a friend. I've been paranoid that we we're having a big gap between us and in the end, we would just be a stranger to each other... I just hate it when this thing enters my mind. (Well, how much more if it will really happen ... What would you do? I don't know ... Maybe I'll be broken when that time comes) Haaay... Ang gulo! Nagpapasalamat na nga lang talaga ako kanina dahil nagkausap kami... Hindi ko na idedetalye kung anu pinag-usapan namin. Basta ang mahalaga, di pala totoo ang mga iniisip ko. I'm not paranoid anymore ... sa ngaun huh?! di ko lang alam sa mga susunod na araw pa... Bahala na talaga...

Well, kahit na ganito naman ang nangyari, masaya pa rin ako dahil ... hmmm ... di ko muna sasabihin... =P Hindi ko pa kasi maidescribe yung nafefeel ko ngaun eh. Ahhh! Basta ... Next time na lang.

Excited?! Nah...!

Not really excited 'bout the fact that tomorrow will be our first day of classes... GOD! Stress na naman! Pero ok lang... Diyan lang naman ang aking Vodka family para tulungan ako... Siyempre, ako rin!

Ganito man ang feeling ko, tipong nawawalan nanaman ng gana pumasok, napakasaya ko... Grabe! nung wednesday pa ito... Tuloy2x na nga talaga ito. Back to the jolly, fun-loving, crazy, wacky and all that jazz ME! It's all about me... All me! ME ME ME!!! Wahahahahahahahahaha! Finally!

And so the pages turn...

I've been hurt so many times. I thought it's because of unrequited love, no it's not. I was expecting too much far from reality -- expecting something I can surely ask for but can never be mine, something he can never give me. Eventhough the table turn -- him loving me back, I'm not taking any chances. Like I said, far from reality. I'm now in the point of letting go. I'm glad that it's not painful anymore. It's more of a feeling of relief. Now, my knuckles are free. Never will I be imprisoned again in this dark pits of his cruel world that he pulled me into 'coz I found light -- realization. I realized that in the long run, I may not be happy with him. I'll just drown in pain and misery. Going through all of this really is tough, but everything just turned to be a lesson learned. This will be my last words, my last pages of this gruelling chapters of my life. These will never be heard of again. I'm now turnng the pages and never will I turn back again. THE END.

Ecstatic...!

I'm ecstatic! Start of something new... Hahahahahahahaha... Get a clue!

Here I Am

Here I Am by Air Supply

Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me

Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside

So theres no sense pretending
My heart its not mending

(chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without

On my own Ive tried to make the best of it alone
Ive done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain

I just cant live without you
I miss everything about you

(chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without
Go on without
Its just no good without you