Paranoia ... not a good thing

I've been too paranoid these past few days about some stupid "THING" I've been thinking about a lot! It's something between me and someone special in my life ... and my head has been playing around "IT" a lot and "IT" is just hurting me inside and making me crazy! Well, one thing's for sure, It made me realized, like what I've said with one of my friends, that it would be better off for me to have him as my friend than not having him at all in my life -- and this is what made me a paranoid. I just can't take the fact that I would lose him even as a friend. I've been paranoid that we we're having a big gap between us and in the end, we would just be a stranger to each other... I just hate it when this thing enters my mind. (Well, how much more if it will really happen ... What would you do? I don't know ... Maybe I'll be broken when that time comes) Haaay... Ang gulo! Nagpapasalamat na nga lang talaga ako kanina dahil nagkausap kami... Hindi ko na idedetalye kung anu pinag-usapan namin. Basta ang mahalaga, di pala totoo ang mga iniisip ko. I'm not paranoid anymore ... sa ngaun huh?! di ko lang alam sa mga susunod na araw pa... Bahala na talaga...

Well, kahit na ganito naman ang nangyari, masaya pa rin ako dahil ... hmmm ... di ko muna sasabihin... =P Hindi ko pa kasi maidescribe yung nafefeel ko ngaun eh. Ahhh! Basta ... Next time na lang.