Crazy Night!

Last night is a very crazy night for me. As in! I went out with my mom to her work. Apparently, a very important document is needed by the trucking company that she contracted with. And without that document, the shipment being imported by her client wouldn't get out of the pier zone. So we rode a taxi in a rainy night 'til there and brought the document with us. Grabe! Nakakainis yung taxi driver. Nung sumakay kami, nakikinig kuno siya ng "maka-diyos radio station". Amen amen pa siyang nalalaman, nagmumura naman. Grabe! Tapos ang sungit grabe. No doubt nakakalbo na siya! (Sama ko -- wag sana makarma) Nung dumating kami dun, ok naman yung experience. At last! nakasakay na ako ng 10-wheeler truck! hahahahahahahahaha! Achievement?!

After nun, siyempre, umuwi na kami. Dahil umulan ng malakas, natural, maraming binaha at naging mabigat ang trapiko. Thank God naman, hindi kami nahirapang umuwi kasi nakasakay kami agad pero grabe talaga! Sa may SM Manila pa lang, napuno na agad yung sinakyan naming jeep. Dami nang mga taong nag-aabang ng masaasakyan. Todo sabit na nga rin ang boylets! Tapos meron pang sumakay na couple na hindi ko maintindihan kung anu ginagawa nila. Nung una kasi, si cutey guy, nakakandong kay pretty girl. *tawa* Tapos bigla sila nagpalit. Tapos, may action na nangyayari. Apparently, mali pala ang nasa isip ko. (I'm so malisyoso! XD) Pero grabe! Nakakatawa talaga sila...

Pag dating namin sa bahay, akala ko tapos na ang gabi ko. As you would have guessed, hindi pa. Nung malapit na kaming matulog, it struck me again. Akala ko talaga tapos na ang lahat. Alam nyo na kung ano yun. As usual, iyak lang naman ang magagawa ko. Haiz... When can this stop?! I wish I just can jump out of this misery. But let me straighten out just one thing -- in all fairness of everything that happened, meron din namang magandang nangyari. Na-realize ko na sorbrang mahirap pala talaga ang ginagawa ng aking mother dear! Na-realize ko na hindi dapat ako nagaaksaya ng panahon sa kung anu-ano lang dahil ang nanay ko ang nahihirapan in the end. Pero siyempre, wish ko lang din talaga na magawa ko ito. Wishing everything just go right. I know that I'm still young but still, I feel that this is like forever. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali. I just need something right now. I don't know what it is. Basta! Miserable! Miserable! Miserable!

It Gets Easier Now

I just ran across this song and it struck me hard! My heart thumps, tear falls everytime I'll hear this song. Made me stranger the very moment I heard it. The song is right, it gets easier without him. Sad but really easy. I just have to let go of everything.

"Easier"
(Kandi feat. Faith Evans)

[chorus]
It gets...it gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right...I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets...it gets easier

[verse1]
I was in misery without you
I could not imagine life without you
It was such a painful thing to go through
To have you being taken away
But I...I dried my tears
Even though it took a couple of years
I guess I had to just let go of my fears
Of being alone...but it gets

[repeat chorus]

[verse2]
I thought my life was over without you
Thought I would be oh so sad darling
Cuz you left me here, to face all my fears
All by myself, with nobody else
Now that you're gone I just gotta move on
But my lovin's never changed
It'll always stay the same
I felt you were wrong
The lonely nights alone
I get weak then I'm strong
It gets easier

[repeat chorus]

[bridge]
Sometimes it's really hard to just let go
Don't feel like moving on...Oh yeah I know
Just breathin' air is hard to bear
Whe the one that you love is not there
Thoughts of you sit heavy on my mind
I always reminisce on our good times
I just take it day by day
I know that'll never be easy
But I can say it gets easier

[repeat chorus]

Gloomy Sunday...!

Nakakabagot... Sana merong escapade... hindi na tuloy yung pagpunta ko sa Davao kasi si Tito, nabago yung mga plano niya... Biglaang business trip daw. Haiz! Mga mayayaman nga naman talaga. Buti na lang kami, nakakaahon lang... *sigh*

I'm listening to this track... Sabi ng marami, this is a suicide song. Marami na daw ang nagpapakamatay dahil sa kantang ito. Almost 254,000 people. Hahahahahahaha!!! In fairness, mabigat nga sa pakiramdam ang kantang ito habang pinakikinggan ko. Parang ang sarap magpakamatay...! Waah! Death is bliss... (Baliw din ako eh noh?!)

Haiz... Anu kaya magandang gawin ngayong Sunday? Mamaya, punta akong church. I'll pray for each and every people in the world. Kahit yung mga hindi ko kilala... Hahahahahaha! Masarap talaga mabuhay! I'm still young and still a long way to go. Basta I'll keep on holding on to good things in this world. Things that'll make me happy and fulfilled as an individual. (Emo ba ako?! Di naman... So so lang. Di masaya, di malungkot...)

Till here...


Mama: Nak, kakain na!
Keep: Ano ulam?
Mama: Paksiw na pata tsaka gulay tapos merong prinitong saging na saba.
Keep: Ano ba yun ma! Pano ba naman ako papayat niyan!


Kain muna me friends! Kayo din! Love you! Mwah!

My Vodka Family...!

I made this out of boredom... It turned out good naman... Hindi ganun kaganda kasi hatinggabi ko na ng ginawa ko yan... Napipikit na ako...

*sigh*

Sobrang miss ko na ang mga kolokoy na ito... matagal-tagal na ding ala kaming session... Di bale, malapit naman na ang pasukan...

Grabe!!! Miss ko na talaga sila...! If I could just control time and space...

*sigh*

"Maging Sino Ka Man"

Grabe!!! I love "Maging Sino Ka Man"... Can't get over it...

*tears*

Nakakaiyak...

*tears*

Can't take it anymore...

*tears*

Exercise...!

Jump rope!!! Sit-ups... pilates... need to lose weight... Turn flabs into abs! Kailangan magkasya sa akin ang mga binigay ni Lolo!!! Size 34... 38 pa ako...!!! Hahahahahaha!

*jump* *jump* *jump*

tara! join me...

Post lang po ulit

Grabe!!! Nakakailang post na kaya ako para sa araw na ito??? Marahil eto ang epekto ng house bum na merong computer at internet connection... (Oo, yung na nga..!) Bukas, mag-jujump rope ulit ako para tuloy2x na ang aking pagpayat!!! Panalo diba?! Hahahahahahaha!!! hmmm...

"iw mary!!! anu bah?!"

Nakakatawa talaga itong kasama namin diot sa bahay!!! 16-anyos na pero pag nakasama mo... mukhang 10 lang!!! Sobrang isip bata...

"joan, tubig please..."

Bagong kasama. In fairness, magkasing-tanda lang kami (19-anyos at mag-20 na, siya sa august 11, ako, secret!) pero may asawa na siya. Ganun ba talaga sa probinsya? Anyway, tulog na ako mamayang konti. Gagawin ko muna ang aking "nightly rituals".

Bukas kaya? Magpopost ulit ako??? Hahahahahahahaha... bahala na...!

"Just Go w/ the Flow"

Just go with the flow...

... try ko din gawin ito! Sabi yan sa akin ni Karen ... try ko talaga!

Getting Over

Kantang nagpapalakas sa akin ngayon... I need to get over him!



"Over You"

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Wag daw ako tumingin...

May nabasa akong isang comment ng friend ko (Ichi) sa isa ko pang friend (Chudy) sa multiply account nya... sabi nya dun,

"... what the eye doesn't see, the heart doesn't grieve over."

Hindi ko lam pero natamaan ako nito... Panu ko kaya gagawin ito kung palagi naman kaming magkasama at nagkikita (hello! iisa lang ang school na pinapasukan namin, tsaka isa lang ang circle of friends namin...). So what I'm trying to say, walang kawala. Ano? Iiwas ako? Baka mamaya, magka-issue pa sa barkada namin! hahahahahahahaha!!! Can't get over! Help naman... I wish someone could get me out of this. (meron ba..?)

*sigh*

First post... Haiz...!

This would be my first post ever! Nakakbagot kasi. Walang magandang magawa dito sa bahay. Mamaya, mag-jujump rope siguro ako nang pumayat naman ako. Mag-isa lang ako ngayon dito sa baba. Yung mga kasama ko, nasa taas, natutulog. Anu kayang magandang gawin? Hala... naiisip ko nanaman siya. Gusto ko na talga siyang kalimutan. Ako lang naman kasi ang nahihirapan eh. Haiz...! Anu kaya kung magpatihulog ako sa hagdan ng magka-amnesia ako. Hehehehehe!!! Baliw din ako eh noh! Grabe! Cge na nga, mag-jujump rope muna ako... papayat muna ako! Hahahaha!!!